SUBMITTED: Friday, August 08, 2008
POSTED: Friday, August 08, 2008
Dear Joe,
You are very right about all the points you made. The only thing I can say is that I made a very poor judgement call when I decided to write what I wrote about Billy Zane. My only excuse is that I was extremely hurt that after 17 years of friendship, Billy called me out of the blue and said . . . "Bea, we can't be friends anymore because Kelly does not like it." which was a lie and I told him, "Billy, why do you bother lying to me when you know what a good psychic I am and obviously you did not read the email I sent you this morning telling you what you were about to do and the real reason why."
You see folks being psychic does not make me special since everyone is special if you care to look . . . and I do make mistakes. Billy used to call me his "Cyrano de Beatrice" I read on his relationship 255 times the first year alone and I was so tired of it you have no idea, so I told him after another six months of reading almost daily for him, no more and not only did he end our friendship and blame it on his girlfriend, he also was hired to direct a movie and was going to cast Silvia Browne to play a "comedic psychic who channels celebrities" which is YOURS TRULY and that was the last straw. I lost it completely and that is when I wrote what I wrote which can be googled for all to see SO SHAME ON ME!
I never do forums anymore either and the myspace forum (my first one) is a perfect example of why . . . in my experience the minute I say I am a psychic, I am immediately treated with disdain and called every kind of name from ignorant people who know nothing and assume I am a scammer and since I am very good at making biting remarks . . . well there you go . . . that is exactly what I did and I got banned from the forum for it too. lol
Chip Coffey stole my legal birth name and used it to take people to his website and he deserves to be exposed however, I am done with all that negativity . . . and would much rather focus on spreading love and light then bitterness and hate. So I apologize for not always doing the "light" thing. I believe you always teach what you are here to learn.
Alan in Ireland called me yesterday . . . and I told him that when I put "Goddess" in the search engine here in the states, my site does not come up. He was meant to get a reading from me no doubt! Merlin wanted to save him from the slaughterhouse!! Eight generations of it!!
I do call myself a "comedium" since I have the spirits of John Belushi, Lenny Bruce and many others around me . . . and I would always say that the people that should be scared of me are Chip Coffey, Billy Zane and Satan!
Now, here is a positive and beautiful message that I needed to hear. We all do. I got in an argument with one of my best friends and I felt really bad about it and I asked my spirit guide Merlin, "What do I need to know right now Merlin, because I need help." And I got the hit to go to my Myspace page. Now, I never ever read bulletins but I got the hit to read one and this is what it said. It is exactly what I needed to hear. Merlin is cool like that. Here it is . . . enjoy!
I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.
I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends
If we understand that friends change.
I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is,
They're going to hurt you every once in a while
And you must forgive them for that.
I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow,
Even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love..
I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life.
I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.
I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones
With loving words.. It may be the last time you see them.
I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I Believe...
That we are responsible for what we do,
No matter how we feel.
I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect
To kick you when you're down,
Will be the ones to help you get back up.
I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,
But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I Believe...
That maturity has more to do
With what types of experiences you've had
And what you've learned from them
And less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I Believe...
That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken
The world doesn't stop for your grief.
I Believe...
That our background and circumstances
May have influenced who we are,
But, we are responsible for who we become.
I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager
To find out a secret.
It could change your life Forever.
I Believe...
Two people can look at
The exact same thing
And see something totally different.
I Believe...
That your life can be changed
In a matter of seconds
By people who don't even know you.
I Believe...
That even when you think
You have no more to give,
When a friend cries out to you -
You will find the strength to help.
I Believe...
The happiest of people
Don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything.
I Believe...
That you should send this
To all of the people that you believe in,
I just did.
Peace out!